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[08 Jul 2005|03:52pm] |
Well, I've burned my tarot cards and my arm isn't sore anymore, so I might as well say something since I haven't really yet.
I remember meeting a skinny little boy when I was eleven and not being able to believe that he was the Boy-Who-Lived. He was, of course, but he wasn't just that, you know? He was Harry, and for the last seven years, that's who I've known and been happy, sad, angry, and miserable with. I mean, I knew he was the Boy-Who-Lived, but I guess I never connected it because I saw him everyday in my classes and he was like every other boy, so when he went off to fight, I didn't connect the Boy-Who-Lived with Harry, and I guess I didn't really realise that Harry was gone until the memorial with everyone telling stories about him and everything else. And despite that, it sounds silly but I think I miss my sister more right now and I really wish she'd come back if she could, but I understand if she doesn't, or at least not right now, you know?
Anyway, I've been thinking about what I want to do, now that I won't be fighting Death Eaters for the rest of my life, and I'd like to continue working on designing clothes and weaving spells into them, so if the flat in Diagon Alley is still there, I'll probably try going there to see what I can do.
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[16 Jun 2005|02:20pm] |
I can't believe it's ending already. I mean, it still feels like I just crossed the lake and was Sorted, you know? I don't feel ready to be an adult or to act mature and grown up or...or anything, really. But it's ending Friday and I can't stop that and tomorrow I officially become an adult and I don't know, it's really really frightening to think about it. I always wanted to look older and be older but now I don't think I want to be.
I haven't packed yet. And I don't think I will. If I can't have fun, at least my firsties should be able to. I hope they all come back next year, I really do.
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[20 Apr 2005|08:15pm] |
It feels strange to be writing this because it doesn't feel like a year (or a little more than one now but I couldn't bring myself to write then) has actually passed since that happened and I'm not sure what to say.
Well, anyway, this is for you, Dean.
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[25 Mar 2005|06:18pm] |
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It's been a while since I've written in this, huh?
It's really interesting how much someone's viewpoint can change, I think, but it's a bit scary too. I don't like to think about the future much (or well, I do a lot but it's more just my dream life or relationships that I try to See instead of anything serious), but you know, I'm leaving school in a few months. Most of the time, I know where I'm going, and I'll have plans to do something over the summer before I have to come back to school and go through another year but that's it after this summer. Mum wants us to go back to India to visit everyone there and I guess I'll probably go there first because I miss them a lot, I really do even though I complain about Mum's strange owls about future husbands she's picked out and all that rubbish. And that's another thing! She wants me to go back and get married like she did and settle down and even if You-Know-Who is defeated (no pressure, Harry) like everyone hopes he will, there are going to be a lot of problems still there and I think I want to stay and help and make sure everything is okay before I decide if I even want to settle down or not!
It really is easier once you write everything down, or at least it feels easier. I'll have to thank the firstie who said that sometime, which means I get to take a study break and make a card! Anyway, this is a really boring entry and I'm sorry about that but sometimes you just need to scream somewhere and I guess this is the easiest place to do it and make this book stop eating my jumper.
Oh, does anyone want tarot card readings? I need to practice for my Divination N.E.W.T. and it's not fun doing it on the same people over and over!
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[24 Feb 2005|08:29pm] |
I've started seeing spells soaring in my sleep! Sad, isn't it? I've started revising since my sister said I should or else she'd sit me in snow without shoes or socks until I said every spell since September of first year.
Sorry I haven't said so much lately.
I should study some History soon since it's so hard.
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[07 Feb 2005|09:48pm] |
My day was fabulous.
First, Seamus and I still haven't found Lav's mouth, or a way to ask Pansy back for it but that's okay because it means she doesn't have to talk in class anymore! Still, it's really sad, you know?
Second, one of my firsties got sick today! I guess she's been feeling off lately and now she's thrown up in her bed when she woke up for dinner. I called the elves and tried to get the smell out, but I can smell it even in the Common Room, even if it's just a little.
Third, someone turned on me and I am not going to tell anyone my secrets anymore, especially to you, trusted friend of my sister and I won't talk to you anymore! I can't believe someone would tell because it wasn't that bad, you know? It wasn't as if I hurt anyone or anything!
I need to go to Professor McGonagall's office now.
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[23 Jan 2005|04:27pm] |
It's been so busy lately! Between my duties and studying for NEWTs (look, Padma, I'm studying!), I've barely had any time to think about anything at all. Except maybe in History of Magic, but it's also a good place just to sleep. That's why I tell my firsties to read the book instead! They've adjusted really well to Hogwarts, I think, and I'm really proud of them. They were better than I was my first year, I know, but it's okay because I improved and that's all that matters, right?
Lav, we need to talk sometime. I'll be in the common room, okay?
Oh, and I guess Harry and Ron too, but not at the same time as Lav, of course!
I think I'm going to paint my nails a bright, happy colour, like Bewitching Glamours. Or should I use Spellbound instead?
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[13 Jan 2005|11:08am] |
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Why does everyone think that I'm silly or foolish or incapable of dealing with anything important? It's not as if I didn't know what I was doing! And I can handle it!
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[01 Jan 2005|10:03pm] |
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Padma, are you busy right now?
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[17 Dec 2004|03:33pm] |
I never thought I'd be so glad to go home.
Usually, I'm sad to be leaving Hogwarts, you know? I always miss the people and the excitement, but I don't really this time. Maybe it's because of what happened in Ravenclaw, or maybe it's because everyone has been so gloomy the whole week - even my firsties! Maybe it's because it's because it's harder to go to sleep now. I see things when I close my eyes, like the leg sticking out from under the all of the rubble. I couldn't make myself clear away the mess because I didn't want to see the body underneath. So I just walked away and started working somewhere else. Gryffindors are supposed to be brave, but I didn't feel brave at all, you know? I was so scared of seeing it. I know someone eventually cleared it away because I saw the body later with a sheet over it later. It was the pink socks, you see? Only it wasn't very pink anymore...just dirty. It's so selfish to say this, but as bad as it was, at least it wasn't Padma. It's all I could think after I went up to the tower to help.
Lav, we need to do some shopping over the holiday!
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[07 Dec 2004|02:00am] |
I had the most delicious chocolate chip cookies today! Absolutely brilliant.
Tragically, even the days are deathly cold, but it's okay because I can wear my new winter robes now which I got at Hogsmeade during the last trip. It's a shame that the firsties can't go but I suppose it makes sense because it could be dangerous, like the Dementors in third year, you know?
It's very hard to find time to sit down these days to write in this thing! I know I'm always so busy now, especially since I'm a Prefect now and have to do so much that I never even thought about before. I don't mean this as a complaint, but it can be very hard sometimes to punish someone sometimes, you know? I hate having to take points for something silly but it's part of being Prefect. Recently, I've even tried to keep track of the number of times I warn or punish a house because it's usually Gryffindors or Slytherins that you hear about but it's weird because every house is almost equal even if they don't do the same things to get into trouble. Strange, isn't it?
I can't find my butterfly clip anymore and I've looked and I've looked and it isn't even under the bed. If anyone has seen it (and don't tell me it's flown away, forget it or that it's just invisible, even), please return it to me! My mum gave it to me when I was four and I don't remember why right now except that you don't need to know. It's still important.
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[18 Nov 2004|10:10pm] |
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So, um, Mr Bill Weasley? I have some questions to ask if you have time? It's for Professor Binns' project.
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[05 Nov 2004|06:04pm] |
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I absolutely adore the prefects' bathroom! It's very nice to soak in a warm bubble bath after a long, stressing day, you know? It's no wonder prefects have a special bathroom because I always wondered why since the ones up in the Tower aren't bad, but it's nice to be able to take a bath instead of a shower.
I'm so comfortable I don't want to revise at all right now. But I will over the weekend, of course!
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[01 Nov 2004|01:40am] |
I cannot believe it took that long just to get to the Ball! I'm glad I went with my firsties, though, because the decorations were gorgeous and they cleaned up my robes and the food was delicious and it was very elegant in general. Most of my firsties were terrified going through and I felt so sorry for them because I know I would have wanted to turn back if I were a firstie myself, you know? But they all made it in the end (aren't they true Gryffindors?) and it was wonderful because some of them danced with me, even though they didn't know how.
Slytherins might be mean and have a dangerous sense of humour, but they've got style, you know?
I think I'm going to sleep now. It's been a long day.
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[22 Oct 2004|02:10am] |
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I love balls! And I actually bought a dress this summer just in case!
It's my firsties' first time at a Hogwarts too and it's so exciting to think about introducing them to their first real event at Hogwarts and no, the Sorting doesn't count since they're all scared then! I hope they have formal robes because it would be sad if they couldn't go because of that, you know?
Professor McGonagall, would it be possible to Transfigure their school robes to dress robes if they don't have any dress robes with them?
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[27 Sep 2004|02:54pm] |
It's all good and well to have a protest until SOMEONE GETS SICK.
I hate Pepper-Up Potion.
At least the firsties made me cards. Someone bring back dinner for me because I'm going to sleep.
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[06 Sep 2004|05:44pm] |
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Lav came over for the last two nights and we went shopping around Diagon Alley and it just seemed right to end summer with a shopping trip, you know? I bought lots of things, too! Got my books for school and extra rolls of parchment and of course some extra robes since my old ones are a little short and some clothes too. I found a shop where I got a
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[30 Aug 2004|04:18pm] |
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PADMA!! HAVE YOU SEEN THE LETTERS?
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[25 Aug 2004|07:13pm] |
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I HATE MY LIFE! THIS IS YOUR FAULT, ROGER!
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[13 Jul 2004|11:31pm] |
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With Roger out of the house, I was finally able to do some decorating around the flat outside of my room and there was a sale on some trendy furnishings in a tiny boutique on a side alley that's next to a wonderful Divination shop, so of course I had to help myself to some of the nicer objects there, but I didn't buy out the store in the least so it wasn't a rash buy and our flat needed the colour, you know!
And now it looks happier and not-so-drab and it really feels like home now.
It even feels like old times now. Padma and I just talked all last night when she came back from Roger's and it was just like when we were small only we didn't need to lower our voices because our Mum would overhear us otherwise and tell us to go to sleep!
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